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Post by lazey on Apr 28, 2015 16:12:16 GMT -5
I have a hard time motivating myself, especially when all I want to do is sit or lay down like a normal person would do when they're dizzy. But since I'm always dizzy if I always did that I'd never get anything done.
See my pathetic attempts at conquering the world or just getting to the store for something to eat.
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Post by lazey on Apr 28, 2015 16:32:45 GMT -5
Today- 2015-04-28
Stayed up way to late last night reading Wikipedia articles.
Approximately 10am woke by people talking, ignore it and try to sleep. Sleep tracker alarm went off around 10:15. Turned it off. 11:30am cellphone's alarm went off. Also turned it off. Dozed until around 1pm when I got up.
Changed Kristoff's (the cat) water and gave him some more food. Got a fresh glass of water for myself, fixed up a bowl of cereal (Golden Grahams because I eat like a kid) and a cup of decaf black tea. Wanted to sit at my desk and check facebook while eating but kept going to make sure Kristoff wasn't getting into trouble upstairs.
Around 2:30 I'd had my cereal and tea but the dizziness was really unbarable. Not sure what else to do so I took a klonopin and put "10th Kingdom" in the DVD player. Want to go to the library but am too dizzy for that. Try to relax, try to catch up on fb, but fb is screwing around trying to show me crappy 'top stories'. Around 4pm- made a sandwich, watch 10th Kingdom. Am finally starting to feel better but the library closed at 5.
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Post by Michael T on Apr 29, 2015 5:21:12 GMT -5
I have a hard time motivating myself, especially when all I want to do is sit or lay down like a normal person would do when they're dizzy. But since I'm always dizzy if I always did that I'd never get anything done. See my pathetic attempts at conquering the world or just getting to the store for something to eat. I know exactly how you feel lazey. Mornings are worst for me.....I used to always wake up refreshed and raring to go, but with CSD, its really hard to get going...takes hours....
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Post by Michael T on Apr 29, 2015 5:21:58 GMT -5
Today- 2015-04-28 Stayed up way to late last night reading Wikipedia articles. Approximately 10am woke by people talking, ignore it and try to sleep. Sleep tracker alarm went off around 10:15. Turned it off. 11:30am cellphone's alarm went off. Also turned it off. Dozed until around 1pm when I got up. Changed Kristoff's (the cat) water and gave him some more food. Got a fresh glass of water for myself, fixed up a bowl of cereal (Golden Grahams because I eat like a kid) and a cup of decaf black tea. Wanted to sit at my desk and check facebook while eating but kept going to make sure Kristoff wasn't getting into trouble upstairs. Around 2:30 I'd had my cereal and tea but the dizziness was really unbarable. Not sure what else to do so I took a klonopin and put "10th Kingdom" in the DVD player. Want to go to the library but am too dizzy for that. Try to relax, try to catch up on fb, but fb is screwing around trying to show me crappy 'top stories'. Around 4pm- made a sandwich, watch 10th Kingdom. Am finally starting to feel better but the library closed at 5. Seems like you have a tendency to feel better as the day passes? I know that's the case for me....
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Post by jools on Apr 29, 2015 9:22:48 GMT -5
That's interesting because I have the opposite way, I'm less dizzy in the mornings. Just to be sure have you checked that you don't have sleep apnea?
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Post by lazey on Apr 29, 2015 18:55:19 GMT -5
Not sure if I was feeling better because the day progressed (I get bad spells in the evening too sometimes) or because I doped myself on klonopin or because I ate something solid (sandwich).
I don't think I have sleep apnea. My dad was that. Had thought about doing a sleep study, could be worth looking into.
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Post by lazey on Apr 29, 2015 21:27:56 GMT -5
So yesterday I blew the rest of the evening and late into the night watching DVDs and goofing of on my laptop.
So today (4-29): Sorta woke up around 8:30 but didn't get up until around 9 shortly before my Mom showed up to give me a ride home. Made a thermos of tea (Cream Earl Grey from NM Tea Co, my favorite) with about 1/4 tsp sugar, a tiny bit of coconut oil (I like how it makes tea taste sometimes) and a bit of milk. Decided to take Kristoff home instead of leaving him at my grandparents alone all day. Kristoff is part Siamese so he serenaded my ride home. Had an everything bagel and watched My Little Ponies Friendship is Magic (Don't judge me, it's an awesome show) until my transportation to my appts showed up. Was a bit more dizzy in the waiting room, people were sitting where I prefer to sit so I wound up having to be next to that stupid TV that's always on. Was disorienting, happily moved when a seat on the other side of the room was opened when someone went to their appointment. Saw my therapist around 12 for an hour. Went okay. Talked a bit about the dizziness and more about getting a better sleep schedule and trying to be more active during the day (Because I'm lazy). Saw my vocational counselor. Now that I'm in MA it seems like jobs are opening up in CT. Went over what I've applied to since I last saw her. Got out of my appointment with my vocational counselor 45 minutes earlier than planned so tried to get an earlier ride home... but wound up having to wait for over an hour even though whenever I called was told I'd only have to wait 15 minutes. Was hungry, could've gotten a hamburger instead of just waiting there. Good thing I never go anywhere without a book to read. Driver was against preservatives in food because they cause cancer and not smoking. Eventually got home. Grabbed some more of my stuff, put Kristoff back in his carrier and went back to my grandparents.
Haven't accomplished a whole lot since getting back to my grandparents. Watched Frozen. Did the dishes. Had a sandwich, watched Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. At least I'm not as dizzy today as I was yesterday.
Tomorrow I go see the dr to go over my routine blood tests. My new dr isn't there tomorrow so I'm seeing someone else from the practice. Gonna try talking to him about the dizziness and about having CSD. Dunno if he'll listen to me or not.
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Post by Michael T on Apr 30, 2015 6:55:39 GMT -5
OK, so my one question out of all this is: Did you get the hamburger?
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Post by lazey on Apr 30, 2015 11:09:11 GMT -5
Nope Now I really want one.
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Post by lazey on Apr 30, 2015 19:59:03 GMT -5
Got up around 11 this morning. My Mom came around 1pm to give me a ride to my Doctor appointment. Hit the library on the way, picked up some books and DVDs. Dr appt went well. Found out I'm 3/4 of an inch taller than I thought I was, and that the dr I had seen last time is no longer there (I'm fine not seeing her again, she didn't give me a chance to say two words) because she was per diem. The doctor I saw today seemed okay, listened better than most doctors I've seen in the past 20 years. For a change he didn't want to brush it all off as psychological and is referring me to a neurologist, is actually going to try to get me into UMASS. He called it chronic vertigo, but he's sending me to a neurologist so that's important. He prescribed Meclizine to take as needed in the meantime (Anyone have any experience with it?). Went over my blood test results, everything was fine except for finding out I have anemia. I've been tested for anemia many times since this started over 20 years ago and this is the first time I've been found to be anemic so I'm pretty sure this is a new development, not causing the dizziness but isn't helping anything. Had to get more blood drawn for more testing to figure out why I'm anemic. Hit Walmart for my prescription. Of course it wasn't ready so I did a little shopping, got a new hat and sunglasses that hopefully can help make shopping less horrible in the future. Went back to the pharmacy for my prescription, by then the lights were starting to bother me so of course there was someone ahead of me buying groceries. Got my new med then went to check out, some idiot had an overflowing shopping cart in the 20 items or less line (Just that sorta day) made the mistake of using the self checkout, cursed at the stupid machine a bunch of times before I could get out of there. Went back to my grandparents house. Unloaded some groceries and gave Kristoff his new toy furry mice (One had a really nice rattle in it) very happy cat. Cooked a hamburger on the stove, melted my spatula because it was a cheap dollar tree spatula and I didn't have the sense to not leave the spatula leaning on the frying pan, also undercooked the burger. Been just chilling out watching DVDs (What ever happened to Baby Jane), should do some cleaning or at least the dishes in a bit.
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Post by Michael T on Apr 30, 2015 20:09:20 GMT -5
Great diary Lazey !!
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Post by lazey on May 1, 2015 21:09:38 GMT -5
I wasn't up late last night but had trouble waking up today and didn't get up till after 12, I was really dizzy, felt sort of drugged. I'd taken a Zyrtec for my allergies last night and thought any drowsiness would've worn off by then. Fed the cat. Got a text from my sister about going out for ice cream so I got dressed instead of going back to bed. Woke up a bit. After ice cream we went to my parent's house for a while. I started getting really dizzy so I decided to try Meclizine and watched TV for a while... The meclizine didn't help my dizziness at all but I think it made me feel drowsy again. Got back to my grandparents around 5 and have pretty much just loafed around since. Almost dozed off at one point watching TV.
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Post by Michael T on May 2, 2015 14:07:02 GMT -5
I cant handle Meclizine at all, knocks me out, makes me a zombie...
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Post by lazey on May 3, 2015 0:06:50 GMT -5
Today was another bad dizzy day... Was hoping to hit some yard sales but didn't get up till after 1pm because I was so dizzy this morning. Managed to do some cleaning though I actually felt light headed, not just dizzy. Getting some stress about my grandmother not wanting my cat to go upstairs, he's good about not getting on the table or counters but she doesn't trust him. Poor Kristoff, he really is a good cat. Sister came over and we made gyros. Would've gone over to her house but my nephew is sick. Mostly been doing what I've been doing all week, watching DVDs and wishing I wasn't dizzy. Wondering if the Zyrtec is making me worse. Makes my allergies more tolerable but been even dizzier.
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Post by Michael T on May 3, 2015 5:27:39 GMT -5
Today was another bad dizzy day... Was hoping to hit some yard sales but didn't get up till after 1pm because I was so dizzy this morning. Managed to do some cleaning though I actually felt light headed, not just dizzy. Getting some stress about my grandmother not wanting my cat to go upstairs, he's good about not getting on the table or counters but she doesn't trust him. Poor Kristoff, he really is a good cat. Sister came over and we made gyros. Would've gone over to her house but my nephew is sick. Mostly been doing what I've been doing all week, watching DVDs and wishing I wasn't dizzy. Wondering if the Zyrtec is making me worse. Makes my allergies more tolerable but been even dizzier. Lazey, are you staying hydrated? I know, personally, I am not a fan of plain water, and I get dehydrated and get dizzy when I stand up allot.
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Post by lazey on May 3, 2015 15:58:25 GMT -5
Lazey, are you staying hydrated? I know, personally, I am not a fan of plain water, and I get dehydrated and get dizzy when I stand up allot. Pretty sure, I drink mostly water (Maybe a cup of tea too, and once in a great while a soda) and drink quite a lot of it. Really dizzy today too
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Post by lazey on May 4, 2015 19:47:35 GMT -5
Not as bad today but still didn't have the energy to walk to the library and grocery store (especially since they're in opposite directions) fortunately my sister had to do some shopping and gave me a ride to both places. Wore a hat, my sunglasses were just too dark, got almost everything on my list though I did get very dizzy. Pondering what to make for dinner, have to do some dishes first whatever I decide on... Probably another hamburger and some veggies.
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Post by lazey on May 6, 2015 18:19:51 GMT -5
Didn't do much yesterday besides sweep. Not much today besides getting a call from the neurology department about scheduling an appointment. If I had a ride I could've been seen today because there had been a cancellation, but of course I couldn't so I'll be seen early next month.
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Post by lazey on May 7, 2015 13:31:14 GMT -5
Stayed up later than I should have watching DVDs (re-watching Grimm season 1) and messing around on the laptop. When I finally got to bed it was another 2 hours before I could fall asleep and it was light outside. Didn't get up until almost 1 in the afternoon today. I didn't have any caffeine within hours of going to bed, besides some chocolate swirls in my ice cream around 10 so I don't think it's caffeine. I need to be more active during the day and work on winding down, practice my breathing exercises. I was talking about having an actual garden in a smallish patch in my grandparents back-back yard. Great way to get exercise and outside, and I LOVE sun warmed tomatoes, might even fit Kristoff with a 'walking jacket' (fancy harness) so he can go play in the garden with me. When I did sleep last night/this morning my dreams swirled around 3 cats I lost last year. Pout, the best cat I've ever known and unofficial natural therapy cat (Only 6 years old, died of kidney cancer, I'd have given him my own kidney if it could have helped him) I contribute most of my 'good years' to Pout, he had a calming influence that made even the worst dizziness tolerable, I was able to work and even considered trying to get my driving license during that period. After he died things have gone downhill. Blitz the kitten I adopted from a shelter only to lose him a little over 3 months later- I still don't know what happened, only that he died after I gave him a bath. The shampoo had no negative reviews I had looked all over google to see if any other cats or kittens had any ill effects and found none so I don't know if there was something in the shampoo he was sensitive to- I'll never use that shampoo again and never anything stronger than cheap blue Dawn. The emergency vet seemed to think there was something wrong with him already, maybe an aneurism, that it was only a matter of time before he died and the excitement of the bath may have made it happen sooner. I asked about a necropsy but the vet did not think it would answer anything and only cost more money (which I didn't have) but I still wonder if it could have given me any closure. Still haunted by this. Then Cheeto basically disappeared without a trace. She was going on 14 years old, twice the week following her disappearance she had snuck outside (Cheeto was primarily an indoor cat) but came back willingly... Then she got outside and I couldn't find her. No telling what happened to her. My Mom thinks she might have gone out to die alone (though Cheeto seemed healthy, she was almost 14) I checked the roads, though if she had been hit by a car she may have gotten herself a fair distance from the street. We have coyotes, something I hate to think about. Cheeto was a very sweet cat and very pretty, completely white (He full name was White Cheddar Cheetoe) I hope someone mistook her for a homeless stray and took her in, or if she died it happened quickly and she didn't suffer. I hate not knowing.
Having a hard time to motivate myself into doing something. I haven't left the house since Monday. There isn't anything I need (No new library books, I have enough food) but I need to get out.
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Post by Michael T on May 7, 2015 18:32:30 GMT -5
TACO BELL !!!!
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Post by lazey on May 9, 2015 1:07:42 GMT -5
Today wasn't a good day. I was hoping to go to Connecticut to go fishing but was too dizzy for it... Didn't get up until sometime after one in the afternoon. A lot of frustrations. Turns out I didn't get the library job. Had some fun relaxing on the deck with Kristoff for a couple hours... of course when it started to get dark and I took him inside he wasn't happy and meowed constantly as only a Siamese cat can...
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Post by lazey on May 9, 2015 19:14:28 GMT -5
Today wasn't much different. Woke up even dizzier and slept in even later. Was trying to get my book, cell and laptop and afternoon 'breakfast' together to eat on the deck with Kristoff but Kristoff was being an impatient brat, kept running upstairs without me (My grandmother doesn't like Krisoff being upstairs) so I had to keep bringing him back down, and when I shut him in my room he cried his head off... Worse than a human kid. Finally get myself set up on the deck, got my laptop, tea and bowl of cereal with Kristoff about ot enjoy some sun... And then someone started using a table saw and the noise had Kristoff so scared he didn't want to be on the deck anymore.
Loafed around on my laptop and facebook most of the day.
After it quieted down I brought Kristoff back on the deck and have been out here for quite a while. It's starting to get dark so I want to go back inside, I'm surprised I'm not being swarmed by mosquitoes, but of course Kristoff is having a grand old time watching birds darting around after bugs and it's not gonna be fun convincing him to go back inside... He's getting too big to be carried where he doesn't want to go.
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Post by jools on May 10, 2015 3:13:33 GMT -5
You seem to sleep quite a lot so apparently your symptoms are lesser when you're lying down?
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Post by lazey on May 10, 2015 11:21:38 GMT -5
Nope, I wake up after laying down for hours and am very dizzy Was up late last night and had a hard time getting to sleep. For some reason I woke up around 10 this morning and it looks like I'm up for the day. I need to hit a store or two but don't feel like walking.
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Post by lazey on May 10, 2015 23:05:37 GMT -5
Kinda frustrated. Despite getting up by ten(hours earlier than I usually do) I didn't get much done today besides going to CVS and getting terribly dizzy there.
I wanted to take Kristoff on the deck but all day there was so much noise going on outside I didn't bother (Mostly from the garage, someone planing boards) the noise would've scared him and made him want to run... Of course Kristoff still thought he wanted to go out on the deck, and if he couldn't go there then at least be upstairs and lay on my grandmother's kitchen floor. Poor Kristoff wound up having to spend most of the day being carried back downstairs or shut in my room because that's the only way to keep him from going upstairs since there's no proper door on the stairs. About two weeks ago my grandmother was going to just let me train Kristoff to stay off the counters, table and couch because it's impossible to make him stay downstairs all the time without shutting him in my room. But after only a few days she suddenly changed her mind and decided she didn't want Kristoff upstairs at all, even though his training was going well. You can't expect instant results with any animal, especially a cat, being consistent is key, going from allowing him upstairs but deterring him from jumping on things to not being allowed upstairs at all doesn't make sense to a cat. Even now when he goes upstairs he stays on the floor. Poor cat isn't going to do any harm, he probably just wants to be up there because the floors upstairs are warmer than the cement floors of the basement. I wish my grandmother would just get over her paranoia and let Kristoff go upstairs, she convinced he'll get on her counters and table and spread unspeakable germs all over the place when she's not looking. I've read up on feline behavior and really think it would be easier to just train him to stay off counters/table/furniture instead of forbidding him an entire floor that has no physical boundary keeping him away (It's basically impossible)... But instead I have to keep dragging Kristoff downstairs and shutting him in my room where he cries and has to be feeling as frustrated as I am. It has me seriously thinking about going back to my parents even though my parents house has its own share of frustrations (No running hot water most of the time and the old house is falling apart) and the family wants me here in case my grandparents ever need help... Cats are so much easier to deal with than people.
I also am sick of being broke, saving all my money to get Kristof neutered later this month (I've put it off too long already, any longer and he'll start spraying) but am still $20 short for the surgery and that's taking him to one of those discounted deals that include his shots. Getting nowhere on the job search, think I've applied to every business in walking distance around my grandparents. The next step will be to try the bus and I can't even afford bus fare. I have some sort of job search seminar to go to in about 2 weeks but I don't have a lot of faith in it helping me find a job.
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Since I got up sort of early today I should be going to bed soon but i probably won't. Still need to do dishes and there are so many distractions online.
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Post by lazey on May 19, 2015 20:49:01 GMT -5
I've been bad and fell behind on logging stuff.
Been dizzy a lot. I might be going back to my parents because my grandmother isn't getting used to my cat and I don't think I can tolerate being without my Kristoff.
I'm supposed to go to some job finding seminar tomorrow but I'm not sure if I'll go or if I should even bother. It would be to help me find a job in Massachusetts, and if I go back to my parents I'll be back in Connecticut with transportation issues. It's also supposed to be two hours long. I'm not sure how the lighting will be there and if it's not interesting enough to keep me occupied...
Another thing is how bad my sleep schedule has been. I actually got up around 9 this morning and fell asleep BEFORE dawn last night but it's been really bad. The other night I couldn't fall asleep until around 7 in the morning and I hadn't had any caffeine since around noon time that day. I might not even be able to wake up in time to make it to the seminar.
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Post by Michael T on May 20, 2015 20:13:34 GMT -5
I hate sleeping issues....I was plagued with that for years.....
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Post by lazey on May 20, 2015 22:06:45 GMT -5
Wound up calling and cancelling for the seminar this morning, I was just too dizzy. Went back to sleep for a while and was even dizzier when I woke up again around 2:30. It was one of my bad days, very dizzy. Didn't accomplish anything. But decided I'm going back to my parents house. My grandmother won't stop stressing about my cat, even when he is downstairs she worried about him coming upstairs and polluting everything. She decided that my cat had to go, so I'll go too.
Now I have to pack up my stuff... Been here for almost 2 months and a lot of my stuff from my parents house has migrated here. I hate packing but I'm planning on leaving tomorrow.
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Post by Michael T on May 21, 2015 20:45:24 GMT -5
She decided that my cat had to go, so I'll go too. Now I have to pack up my stuff... Been here for almost 2 months and a lot of my stuff from my parents house has migrated here. I hate packing but I'm planning on leaving tomorrow. This is bad news Lazey !!!
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Post by lazey on May 22, 2015 17:03:43 GMT -5
Tell me about it! My grandmother doesn't get at all how therapeutic a cat can be and talks about my attachment to Kristoff as if it was an unhealthy addiction that I need to wean myself of. You'd think we were using the same toothbrush or something the way she went on My room was such a chaotic mess when I came home yesterday. Some lakes were still iced when I left so I still had all this icefishing gear out, all my winter clothes hanging on the rack just waiting for me to put them back on. And of course my older cat that got left behind had her own way of displaying her displeasure of me being gone for so long... Took hours just to clean and my room still isn't put to rights. Tying with whether or not to start a garden, I like to get started as soon as the ground has thawed enough to work but it's almost June... All my gardening stuff (including seeds) is still in the van from being packed yesterday and my mother is still off somewhere with the van, so I can't do anything about it right now. I should go through my open water fishing stuff so I can FINALLY go fishing. It's been way too long since I've been able to go fishing. I was in Massachusetts for two months without a MA fishing license, I couldn't afford to buy one and certainly couldn't afford the fine if I got caught so I did without all this time. Another thing that sucks about being home is we don't have any hot running water. If I want hot water I have to heat it, the water from the sink is so cold it hurts my joints to wash my hands with it. Makes me not want to touch anything so you can imagine my reluctance to get all filthy from gardening or even go fishing. And cleaning has been terrible.
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