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Post by lazey on May 25, 2015 15:04:29 GMT -5
Accomplished... basically nothing since coming back to my parents. I hate washing my hands with cold water so much and heating it is such a hassle I don't even want to touch anything. If we don't get hot water soon I'm going to go crazy.
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Post by lazey on May 26, 2015 10:37:24 GMT -5
Last night was really bad. Lot of dizziness and frustration. Didn't get much sleep last night but had to get up early to bring Kristoff to get neutered. Poor cat did not want to go into the carrier and meowed pretty much the whole ride. Now I'm going to be worrying about him until I get to pick him up around 4. Complications are rare but they do happen and the stress of being back with my parents has my OCD going into overdrive.
Got myself signed up for a workshop with CT Works, hoping it will help me find a job but I've been looking for a job for so long and no luck I doubt I'll ever find one, much less one that my damned dizziness will let me do. Closed my checking account because I'm fed up with them trying to rip me off all the time. I won't be able to buy anything online until I get enough money to open an account with another bank but at least a mayonnaise jar won't screw me over. Trying to cut the BS out of my life. Splurged on lunch at a local cafe then I'm going to hit the library and probably stay there until it's time to get Kristoff.
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Post by lazey on May 26, 2015 10:38:27 GMT -5
grr double-post.
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Post by lazey on May 26, 2015 16:59:47 GMT -5
Got Kristoff back home. I guess he's ok though he's still really drugged.
My dad's being an asshole. I really wish I could get out of here with my cat.
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Post by lazey on May 30, 2015 15:13:44 GMT -5
Fed up and frustrated. Dizzy as ever. Still no hot running water. Tried heating a pot of water so I'd have some hot water when I needed it, burned two fingers on my right had and spilled water all over the bathroom. The water was near boiling, been trying to keep my fingers cool with cold water but they still hurt, not sure if I'm going to need to see a dr over this. If we could just get hot running water I wouldn't have to go through this bullshit and this never would have happened. I want to move out but have no job and nowhere to go, I tried getting out three times and keep ending up back here. This place is hell. Everything in this house is filthy, either sticky or greasy and no one else gives a damn about it so I'm afraid to touch anything. My OCD is through the roof, I can;t do anything but sit around all day trying to not get dirty because cleaning up is such a bitch here. I really can't take much more of this.
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Post by jools on May 31, 2015 10:00:09 GMT -5
Sounds rough That stressful environment isn't helping with the dizziness at all..
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Post by lazey on May 31, 2015 17:44:38 GMT -5
Finally got hot water but of course I get a new stress. Kristoff must've bit Rivkah (My almost 14-year-old cat). Rivkah has a wound on her hip and it looks bad enough to take her to the vet for. So much for neutering calming Kristoff down, he must still be hormonal to be so aggressive.
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Post by lazey on Jun 1, 2015 20:23:02 GMT -5
Caught a bunch of nightcrawlers last night, though it killed my back. Got enough for maybe two fishing trips, but it's so rainy right now it will probably be a while before I go fishing. Couldn't sleep at all last night so I slept most of the day, hate it when my sleep schedule gets turned upside down. Rivkah's wound looks a little better but I wish I had $ to take her to a vet to make sure she will be okay. Cat bites can be serious, even to another cat. So frustrated to be so broke and STILL no job, and now poor Riv has to suffer because I can't afford to take her to the vet. Probably will end up begging someone if she gets any worse.
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Post by lazey on Jun 3, 2015 14:40:14 GMT -5
I wanted to go fishing today but it's beginning to look like I'm not going to. The nearby stream is still really high and I don't feel up to walking to the nearest pond. Was hoping my mother would five me a ride somewhere but I haven't seen or heard from her all day.
I had 'earned' a free sandwich from the local cafe. Was feeling hungry and didn't like what we had in the house so I ordered a sub and went down to get it. I was feeling pretty ok, dizzy but bearable, until I got to the cafe to pick up my sandwich. I don't know why, maybe the sun bothered me because I got dizzy bad right before I went in. It's a small cafe with gentle lighting, usually my dizziness doesn't bother me there so much. Glad all I had to do was hand over my sandwich card and leave.
Still feeling really dizzy. Feeling frustrated because I thought today would be an ok day but now I'm feeling so dizzy and not getting to do what I'd hoped to do today.
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Post by Michael T on Jun 6, 2015 21:41:29 GMT -5
hey lazey - free sandwiches are a good thing !
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Post by lazey on Jun 7, 2015 13:07:43 GMT -5
That place makes really good roast beef sandwiches too.
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Post by lazey on Jun 10, 2015 17:45:29 GMT -5
Today has been one of my bad dizzy days. Not sure why I'm so bad today, maybe I didn't sleep enough last night, maybe too much junk food yesterday (I probably should keep a food diary) or just some part of my head just wants to be dizzy for no reason.
It kinda sucks because I'd been relatively better lately, not sure if it's the iron supplements or having hot running water, still dizzy but able to do stuff. I went fishing twice last week (It was awesome, caught a nice rainbow trout within three casts on my first trip, went somewhere else on my second trip and caught a couple small largemouth bass, a bunch of bluegills and a small pickerel) thoroughly cleaned my room this week. Been kind of lazy so I still haven't worked in my garden, though I really have to- I bought some lemon balm, basil and tomatillo plants that need to go in the ground.
I wound up seeing my neurologist Friday. I was supposed to see her Monday but last minute schedule change had me seeing her Friday. I'm not sure how it went exactly, she did not let me talk very much which is a red flag but she did set me up to get an EEG and MRI. I'd had both done in the past that turned up nothing so I don't know if they'll reveal anything this time... The EEG is scheduled for Tuesday.
Job search still hasn't turned up anything. So tired of being broke all the time.
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Post by lazey on Jun 14, 2015 14:13:54 GMT -5
Run out of hot water again so I'm back to being extra OCD not wanting to touch anything. I really need a shower too, tomorrow I'm seeing one of those Drs about disability and I don't want to go there with oily hair. I don't know it greasy hair will help my case but I was planning on hitting an employment agency nearby afterwards to see if they have any jobs I can do, looking greasy won't help there. I hate heating water to wash my hair, it never rinses out right. Hoping one of my sisters will let me use her shower. Seriously thinking about just shaving my head, I did it before years ago and it was so much simpler not having to wash my hair when we ran out of hot water. Also getting an EEG Tuesday so I don't want my scalp to be all oily. The electrodes probably won't even stick.
Still nowhere on the job search. I got a call from a staffing agency offering me a job at the Frito Lay factory and she was going to email me the application. It never showed up so I called her back so she could resend it... It didn't show up. Called her back, gave her a different email address, and it STILL hasn't shown up. Yes I checked my junk/spam folders. This dolt must not know how to send email or misheard me every time I spelled out my email address. Very frustrating. I don't know if I can handle working or not, it's would be fulltime with overtime in a factory setting... But I KNOW I can't work there if I can't fill out the damned application. I'll have to call her again on Monday if I get a chance.
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Post by lazey on Jun 15, 2015 14:13:05 GMT -5
My wonderful sister let me use her shower yesterday. I feel so much more human.
Seeing the Social Security dr in a little over an hour. I have the feeling that there was some paperwork I was supposed to bring in but I can't find any paperwork... Hoping I was supposed to bring paperwork..
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Post by lazey on Jun 16, 2015 0:46:47 GMT -5
I guess the appointment went ok.
My EEG is in less than 6 hours. I'm supposed to be sleep deprived for it, less then 4 hours of sleep. Might not get any sleep at all because my sleep schedule is so messed up.
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Post by lazey on Jun 16, 2015 21:53:43 GMT -5
So I got about 2 hours sleep. Sleep deprivation SUCKS! No wonder they use it as a means of torture. The tech I had was nice but getting an EEG isn't something you do for fun, though it has improved some since I had one done in high school. Had some peaceful background sounds of birds and waterfalls so I wouldn't have to listen to the parking lot, and they use computers for recording brain waves instead of all those scratching pens over paper. The part with the flashing bright light gave me a headache even though I was allowed to keep my eyes closed and it was making me very dizzy so she decided to cut it short.
My awesome sister let me use her shower again. The tech claims the adhesive isn't the same as what they have in school glue sticks but it feels the same and it was all over my scalp. We still don't have hot running water at home and I was feeling really horrible from not being able to sleep (and didn't want to go to bed with a sticky scalp) so a hot shower was very nice.
The sleep deprivation had me feeling so dizzy and anxious, I was beginning to feel like I'd never feel better again so I went to bed as soon as I got back home from my sisters (Had to babysit my baby niece while they took my nephew to see Jurassic World. When my nephew came back he was giving all sorts of spoilers but fortunately I hard remember them now) and slept about 5 hours.
Now when will I manage to fall back to sleep...
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Post by lazey on Jun 19, 2015 1:53:15 GMT -5
Was planning on hanging out at the library... but got really dizzy and didn't feel well enough to go until after it had closed.
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Post by lazey on Jun 23, 2015 9:15:07 GMT -5
Frustrated. Had to cancel a job-finding related seminar (with computers) for the 4th time in a row. I've been wanting to do this seminar or over 3 months but keep having to cancel going. I had transportation arranged over two weeks ago but when my ride was 10 minutes late I called only to ind out I 'wasn't on or today' WTF? Now I have to wait another 2 weeks. No idea how I'm getting there since the transit authority is being unreliable. Had a filling fall out the other day and won't see the dentist until Friday so I'm having all sorts of fun.
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